dream big, live it.

2010-05-30T19:30:00.001+08:00

defeated.

2010-04-11T09:01:00.001+08:00

in life you need to learn to let go.

2010-01-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

is my dream a dying one?

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIOIN

2010-01-02T13:02:00.003+08:00

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010.

Top 10 things to achieve in the upcoming year.

1) Save up $10k to $12k for my dream

2) Spend wisely, so I dont have to live poorly.

3) Take up courses, one at least.

4) As much I want to spend wisely, I want to expand my wardrobe, 1 item per month

5) Take care of my health, eat on time

6) Re-paint my room

7) Be less of a noty boy.

8) Get really drunk and wasted once. (ethan vs gundam 2?)

9) Resist the temptation of buying a car

10) Love .

2009-12-15T22:56:00.001+08:00

desperately in need of a long break . but that doesn't mean anything.

2009-09-11T09:47:00.001+08:00

thats how you know that my love for you is strong

2009-08-21T17:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know how to make lots of money
I don't know all the right things to do
I can't say where we'll go, but the one thing I know
Is how to be a good man to you

2009-08-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

what are the chances that two people fallsick together?

(:

错过的爱就难以从来

2009-08-05T11:34:00.001+08:00

你对我多重要

只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱

a step at a time

2009-08-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

blogged. 040809

what would u choose

2009-05-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

how do you cool yourself in a hot day?

1) go swimming
2) eat ice
3) go hide in an air conditioned room
4) peace, xin jin zhi lang liang

answers below! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qC9mBGHmWM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=De7BJp5QNdI

2009-05-22T15:56:00.001+08:00

everybody get rid of the dog, it just a dog!

and im just a husband, are you going to get rid of me when i misbehave?

-marley and me

i wana be a kid

2009-05-18T18:35:00.001+08:00

there are days i wana be a kid all over again.

2009-05-16T12:46:00.000+08:00

im glad that most of my close friends are happy, getting on with life.

i wished i could do much more for them.

2009-05-15T17:35:00.001+08:00

theres nothing much going on now,

just contented, maybe empty.

life's cant be getting any better.

be happy my melody.

2009-05-15T17:27:00.002+08:00

2009-05-05T17:24:00.002+08:00

happy birthday bestie.

2009-04-09T21:00:00.003+08:00

there are friends that i really get used to,
so used that they become part and parcel of my life.
and its scary to think what happens when i leave for aust w/o them

and first on the list is no other than ting.
we have been knowing each other since year 2000, its 9 years coming to 10 already.
shes been there for every crush, every love and break up of my life. im so used to having her by my side when i need someone. shes a gem, a real friend who is worried that i might get hurt somehow. what happen if shes breaks down, or shes just not there?

and there is another women that comes along with ting, they are a package. Raine.

yes she might be not meeting up with us that often, but deep inside i still know she cares. she probably need us right now. theres no wall between us. lets meet up soon alright?

melody might be missing in my life for far too long, but im getting used to her already. NBCB, how can i ever get bored of her in my life?

and my darling, im so used to her by my side nowadays. week in week out we see each other. its nice to have someone pamper you.

not forgetting joyce and nana too!

and now suddenly, the thought of leaving for aust to study seems very scary indeed.

2009-04-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

i need a getaway.

2009-03-24T01:53:00.000+08:00

2009-03-20T11:38:00.001+08:00

Dear Jun Quan

Congratulations on your offer for the Bachelor of Commerce (Advertising) at Curtin to commence in February 2010.



great.

growing old

2009-03-15T23:11:00.001+08:00

at 12, im worrying if i can make it to secondary
at 14, im playing around in secondary sch
at 16, we were gossiping about who's with who, and worrying about O level.
at 17, we see people break up, get together, chionging projects
at 18, we started talking about National Service
at 21, we get stressed from work, uni lives are introduced into our lifes , we talk about stable relationships and maybe marriage,

at 23, i would receive wedding invites.
at 24, friends would probably talk about buying property / cars
at 25, i will probably be god father of my friend's children.
at 28, they will probably worry about their children education.

growing up is scary.

2009-03-09T16:14:00.001+08:00

im glad everything is over,
yes it hurts, but at least it beats living everyday in a emotional roller coaster.
and i dont have to hold back anymore.

i never liked things that are uncertain. i must move on, somehow.

2009-03-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

loved.

choices

2009-03-02T14:23:00.001+08:00

it feels like im starting to have second thoughts...

2009-03-01T10:07:00.002+08:00

Do things always go in a cycle?
After so many years I find myself back at square one,
making a decision that I have to make few years back,
with the same person I have fallen head over heels with.

Fate has given us a second chance.
Yet then again, Ive decided no, ill still leave it to chance.
Mainly because I want to take off, to my future and to my career.
And all these meant its not ideal for her in the process.

Then again how often do I find someone like her crossing paths with me?
Someone who I really understand, who I can really read her mind.
Someone who I really want to be with.
Will i regret my choice yet again?

2009-02-28T19:46:00.000+08:00

a day with someone special

2009-02-27T13:16:00.001+08:00

whatever happen to my eyes?

Brunei

2009-02-27T13:04:00.002+08:00

random

2009-02-11T15:44:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-02-01T12:09:00.002+08:00

as part of the tradition, we celebrated out 5th or 6th yearly CNY visiting. loads more to come.

goodbye 2008, hello 2009

2009-01-03T23:01:00.002+08:00

hello 2009!

my dear scandal here fly to swiss to futher her studies, for a year.

and im there to send her off, yup i wont be able to see her for a year.

i guess thats how people felt like when i fly to hk for my SIP.

2008 has been a fruitful year for me. i seen people's true colors, grow alot as a person, and learn to love myself more.

and new year resoultions for 2009?

why bother, when i never keep to them anyway =D

people make some nosie at my tagboard!@

NEW YEAR 2009

2009-01-03T14:43:00.000+08:00

when the last time i saw this crazy girl.

she made me dance for 3 hours straight, ended up we both tired and went home earlier.

happy 2009!

2008-12-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

2008-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

i finally dated her on xmas after 7 years!

2008-12-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

24th Dec 05

2008-12-22T12:28:00.002+08:00

i need someone who can take care of herself, not party everyday.

i need someone who got a vision in what she wants in life, not keep getting lost.

i need someone who shouts to the world that shes mine, not keeping it a num.

i need someone who can take care of me, instead of me doing it all the time.

i need someone who isnt as selfish.

i need to love myself more.

2008-12-21T06:26:00.003+08:00

i guess when you grow old you get less surprised at anything.

am giving up trying again and again, you are the way you are.

my future wont have you in it anyway.

2008-12-07T05:16:00.004+08:00

i keep looking for a message for me, but its not happen.

anyway met up with my secondary school loves and random meet up with chole. (:

and not forgetting someone whos been there for me all these while.

2008-12-04T20:46:00.001+08:00

i dont wana drag, i dont want my emotions to be played by you.

goodbye.

2008-12-03T09:13:00.000+08:00

2008-11-23T14:41:00.003+08:00

loves

2008-11-02T13:45:00.003+08:00

was at the dental the other day people watching.

there was this dad with his son beside me, ranting to his 8 year old about raising cost, recession.

apprantly his son wants to be an artist, and he was rejecting the idea.

Dad: what?! you want to be an artist?

Son: yes pap, i like drawing

Dad: think of the money son, the other day your dental appointment costed me $200+

Dad: thinkf of it, what if u dont make it big? what if you earn only a $800 per month?

Dad: after paying for ur housing, bills, car, would you have enough?

Son: ................

i wont mind earning just to survive doing something i really like, would you?

and then there was this couple with a baby. the mum was looking really grumpy all the way. i mean they looked young, maybe 21 - 23.

young parents, oh ya. did the girl really choose someone she loved, someone she could live with? or did they get married because of the baby?

and then came this big fat bastard, those kind u wont think any women would even hold or look at him.

and you know what? there was a lady beside him.

his mother.

mothers are the best thing in the world. they are the ones who wake up early in the morning just to wake u up or send you to school when you are younger. they are the ones who will shrimp and save just to give you extra cash to spend, or even forgo buying new year clothes just to let you have the brand you like. they nag alot, because they worry about your future, your education. and when you have a partner, they worry if the girls are with the correct guys, or the guys are with the correct friends. and this beautiful angel aged over time, without us noticing.

thanks for bringing into this world.

loved.

2008-10-12T18:33:00.003+08:00

generate ideas!

2008-10-12T13:24:00.001+08:00

after reading my random post, my friends came to me telling me i cant do fashion.

i cant help to agree. i cant draw for god's sake. all im good at is drawing stick mens with bow ties and girls with triangle bottoms.

and besides,

my passion aint really in fashion.

i mean i like fashion but its aint something that will feed me.

lets see where am i really interested in.

food. cars. hotel. advertising. entertainment.

any more ideas anyone?!

2008-09-17T15:59:00.001+08:00

UNI

2008-09-16T20:33:00.004+08:00

one more year before i end my service to the nation, im seriously considering my future.

i wana pursue a degree that will aid me in my career, something that im really passionate about and would feed make me finacially stable,

like wise, im also considering working after i ORD. parents are getting old already, its time i pay back what they gave me right?

look at the options / choices that are ideal for me:

London College of Fashion - BA (Hons) Fashion Management (Management; Marketing; Retail; Buying and Merchandising) BA (Hons) Fashion Management (Management; Marketing; Retail; Buying and Merchandising)

International Academy of Design and Technology (US) - Bachelor of Fine Arts Degree in Advertising and Design

NAFA - Fashion Marketing

SMU - Bachelor of Business Management

LASALLE - BA (Hons) Advertising Design / Bachelor of Arts (Hon) Arts Management

MIS - Bachelor of Business Management (BBM) / Bachelor of Commerce (BCom)

SIM - BA Visual Communication with Business

some of those options are unrealisitc, but who knows unless i try! i guess i din really screw up my poly big time, my GPA's so-so , but my CCA records are good. ill be trying my luck.

for now, let me keep my options open.

2008-09-13T00:51:00.001+08:00

i found out somethings that i should not know.

ignorance is a bliss i guess.

2008-09-09T20:42:00.003+08:00

2008-09-07T22:25:00.001+08:00

公公, why haven you appear in my dreams yet?
is it because i din visit you?
or is it im that unimportant?

im missing you

goodbye

2008-08-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

goodbye elmo. no more smiles, no more laughters, no more me.

back at one

2008-07-26T16:44:00.001+08:00

nothing i do ever seem right at the moment.

faith.

2008-07-18T19:39:00.000+08:00

my men are the very reason for my existance as a commander.

ponder.

2008-07-08T20:58:00.006+08:00

something isnt right.

someone please tell me what to do.

jadded

2008-06-29T13:34:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

The past few weeks had been hectic for me. Thus I has been neglecting each and everyone of you guys. Espically my super demanding girlfriend.

1 Year and 10 months.

What can I say? We been through countless- fight and quarrels, but each time we fall back and think why are we together in the first place. Our relationship might seem very dramatic, but its down to simple basic. Both of us want to be doted and loved, thats all.

To her, sorry that I did not spend much time with you. Hope you liked the present I gave to you.

I am glad you found yourself back dear. Like I always said, I just want you to be happy.

I love you dear.

To All,

My book-outs are super short, and my nights off are duper far away. Yes, i do miss each and every other one of you. So please please, bear with me , dont forget my or delete me away.

I do treasure my friends!

oinkie: YOU ARE GETTING MARRIED! YOU SCARE THE F* OUT OF ME OINK. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU.

2008-06-22T15:29:00.000+08:00

R.I.P

2008-06-22T15:27:00.004+08:00

rest in peace my friend.
you did us proud.

never thought one would just leave the world so suddenly.

2008-06-03T21:44:00.001+08:00

and not forgetting my buddy gab.

anyway. will be back soon with updates.

oinkie

2008-06-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

happy birthday oinkie!

2008-03-07T08:38:00.000+08:00

2008-03-06T18:49:00.001+08:00

look what she did when she bought our son to sch.

GROUPIES.

2008-03-06T18:18:00.001+08:00

how i miss school so much.

backk

2008-02-24T15:15:00.006+08:00

BACK WITH MY SON.

im busy and still waiting for photos and time for a super long post.

to dearie..

2007-10-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

maybe im just not good enough for her..

army is the toughest test so far. not only physically and the mental stress.
everynight even though im so shagged out, i try my best to at least call her.
yet it seems that im not interested..

baby, everyday i think of you, when the going gets tough, you were my support.
strange, but NS makes you love the people around you more, make you treasure them more.

but it seems that im just not good enough for you.
to be able to love is a bliss,
but not being able to see each other that often seems like a toture.
i never force you to wait for me,
all i want is you to be happy.

im sorry for being just a weak piece of creature,
im sorry for being so shagged out easily,
im sorry for making you think im not interested,
and im sorry for not spending enough time for you.

all i want is you to be happy

im back

2007-04-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

HI I AM BACK

(:

happy birthday

2007-01-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIK YING

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHAY GEEKY

save the elmo fud

2007-01-11T19:32:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION.

INTRODUCING SAVE THE ELMO FUND.

PLEASE CALL 97927721 to donate your funds.

This effort to raise $390 before 10 Feb 2007. For the reason please contact me for details..

good or bad?

2006-12-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

disappear..

2006-11-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

okie okie..
i admit! rahh..!
i was xing tong,
and i was jealous.

baby i love u!
<3

- twinnie

2006-11-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

shut.

2006-11-05T17:53:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Physical Touch:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2006-11-03T13:53:00.000+08:00

i feel alone all over again.

tired

2006-10-31T18:33:00.000+08:00

im tired.
i wont choose anymore.
tired of breaking down.
everytime, everynow and then.

sometimes i just have to depend on myself.

ive hurt her and myself too much.
let fate decide.

when elmo goes to work.

2006-10-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

hello!! :)
when elmo goes to work.

sending emails to my boss.

got fed up so i switched off the monitor
and up a pick up a gun.

and loaded it with chickens.

its a way of destress
when you overwork in an advertising agency.

kicking feather cocks.
and frog jumpshots

flowers for my baby please?

elmo's fine!

260506

2006-10-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

26/05/06

'

26/09/06.

our special date.

i may pamper you,
i sometimes hamper you,
and i sure get you mad.
sometimes i floor you,

but dear.
ill always love you.

happy anni , kaiqi.
ill be back in ur arms again.

(:

happy birthday

2006-10-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

happy birthday kuan li.
happy birthday fei fei.

kuan li : how's everything going on in canada? its hard to celebrate occassion overseas, i understand. dont worry aright? work hard. ting i and company will be waiting for you to be back real soon.

fei fei: sorry fei, cant send you presents, cant be there for you. FEI FEI! cheer up! its time to be a happier person. thanks alot fei for everything.

2006-10-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

woke up every morning
its a pain and bliss to wake up everyday, without you by my side.
and goes to bed thinking of you again.

everyone thinks im okay, im alright.
i am alright. im terms of living on.
perharps not everybody get to feel the level of helpless-ness i felt.

seeing the one losing everything.
just to wait for me to be back.
hurts more than everything else.

i said i would stay.
and never leave.
will be back for her.
and i want to.
i want to.
i really want to.
ill give anything just to be back in her arms again

im not a selfish creature and never be one.
i said i will leave ( though i never wanted to )
so that i wont stand in the way.
i love you more than anything else..

to lose yourself.
to completely fall in love.
that i experienced before.

painful?
blissful?

i love you kaiqi.
nothing matters more than you happiness.
nothing.
nothing at all.

2006-10-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

rahhh...!
i wana see colours in ur blog!

- <3 twinnie.

<3

2006-10-16T10:02:00.000+08:00

<3 a small symbol like this,
meant alot to me.

my kaiqi loves me.
more than anything else.

hard for her when im away.
for her,
kept me less worried , by avoiding the things i dont like
doing things for me (like my debit card and my ns documentation).
sending lil presents for me from singapore
and most importantly,
waiting.

everynight we chatted on phone.
closed my eyes,
yet when i open them,
baby's not there.

i may not say
i may not show.
but baby, whatever you did,
u let me know .
how much you care.
how much you love

seperated by oceans,
separated by distance.
bought together by fate and love.

baby.
thanks for doing all those for me.
thanks for waiting for me.
thanks for loving me.

never have i felt so overwhelmed before.
kaiqi, i love you.
we will share a great deal of memories when you come to hong kong.
and many more to come.

i never had someone like you.

What Ive been looking for

2006-10-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

What I have been looking for:

It's hard to believe
That I couldnt see

You were always there beside me.
Thought I was alone,
With no one to hold.
But you were always right besides me.

This feeling like no other

I want you to know.

I've never had someone that know me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like like you
So lonely before I finally found
What I have been looking for

So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Dont have to say a word

For so long I was lost
So good to be found

I'm loving having you around.

This feeling like no any other.

I want you to know.

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found
What I've been looking for

i love baby

2006-10-09T17:41:00.000+08:00

i love you kaiqi.

overseas

2006-10-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

finally got a time to blog!
have been really busy for the past two weeks.
working with 9 different brands drive you crazy.

focus groups, commerical shoots, studio recording, comeptitive ad reports, research, analysis....

yet. never forgotten!

1) call baby at 00:00 , tell her i love her.
2) send gifts to baby on our anni
3) write letters to baby everyday

on our anni

a pair of earrings, two hearts. DHL-ed from HK to SG!

with many many postcards.. (shes forcing me to do corrections =/)

baby said she want lilies before i flew.

there! she got it!

WHEY. i want that kiss then im back.

LOVE given.
LOVE felt.
LOVE recieved.

Love me again.

2006-10-03T21:26:00.001+08:00

我都收到了,
全把它放在心里.

- twinnie.

2006-10-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

futile or not.

depends on how u view it.
besides.. its too early too say isnt it? :)

futile or not.

LOVE.

- twinnie.

wait

2006-10-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

everything ive tried turns to be futile.
no point saying, no point doing anything.
for now, im stuck here on hong kong.

maybe all i could do now
i just hold on to all our promises,
love her, pray that she will feel it.
and wait.

wait.
wait.

futile.

anni

2006-09-27T08:15:00.000+08:00

26/05/06 - we first met
26/06/06 - you were angry because you want to school wanted to see me.
26/07/06 - we were already holding hands, but you were unsure
26/08/06 - i kneeel down, you said yes.
26/09/ 06 -im in hongkong, you are in singapore, but our hearts beats as one.

its never about how long we are together,
but how long we have been through.

baby.
sorry i cant be there at this very special date.
may my efforts cover the distance,
and let you feel how much i love you.

i working hard,
for our
future,

ill be back,

for you.

i waited for your good night messages.

but they never came tonight.

no, i wasnt sweet .
if i were, you will have goosebumps all over when i said.
but did you?
i still tear myself to sleep.
missing you wasnt easy.

i wont move
i cant sleep.
i cant breathe until you are here with me.

2006-09-25T09:38:00.000+08:00

1 week down. 9 to go.

i miss you, kaiqi.

we are okay

2006-09-21T07:56:00.000+08:00

6 days since I left Singapore for Hongkong,
nearly a week without baby now.

but never a moment i felt lonely,
for baby's always by my side.

we try to hide our feelings,
pretend to be okay.
so she wont worry for me,
so she tot i wont worry for her.
but yesterday everything poured out.
we found out how much we loved.

we will be okay baby.
with many many much love.
and many many much misses.

when you are far apart,
every simple things we do leads to a big smile.
baby love.

thats when i love you.

2006-09-19T16:59:00.000+08:00

im not mia, i just cant find the time to update.
ill be back once i settle down.

meanwhile..

BABY I MISS YOU.
really..

love you..

2006-09-17T20:14:00.000+08:00

THIS (faith-290706) might just be a random post,
or will be an important one.
hopefully one day,
when this post is being read.
our heart still beats together as one.

- twinnie

4 more days

2006-09-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

4 more days, and its goodbye.

i love u!

2006-09-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

i wrote your name on the sand,
under the starry sky and the dim moonlight.
you sat on the rock, and there i wrote.

I LOVE YOU. KAI QI.

i ran over, and gave you a hug.
under the starry sky and the dim moonlight.
with the waves and the breeze gently blowing behind.

i whispered in to your ears, "baby i love you".
under the starry sky and the dim moonlight.
i do , i do, i really do.

26/08/2006

2006-08-26T03:36:00.000+08:00

if i ever know that ill put you through so much,
i wont even started it.

in 3months
evrything changed.
we never thought we would come so far.

if you leave,
will i let you go?
or will i chase in pursuit?

if you leave,
is it that you really want to go?
or you want me to go chasing.

sorry twinnie.
i have to leave for hongkong in 18 days.

follow you heart,
eventually everything will turn out fine.

i hate myself

NOT afriad to carry on.
BUT too afriad of hurting you.
never was easy to wait for someone.
never was for us to leave each other in the first place.

AH

2006-08-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

shout.
where am i?

thoughts-edit

2006-08-17T04:11:00.000+08:00

define happiness.

still remember the days,
where everything's that simple.
i brought you out for supper.
i brought you to the movies.
i sent you home
i accompanied you when you were bored. tell you jokes that aint funny
i asked if you had eaten, or rested enough because of your work.
i din had to bother about people around you,
simply because i had not fallen so deep.

but now everything seems different even though
i still bring you out for supper,
i still bring you to the movies, (click was the 7th movie we watched)
i bring you to gatherings,
i still send you home.
and still does go to that special place.
i accompany you when you were bored,
talk you to sleep, sing you silly songs
say "i love you" every 00:00.
but i stopped asking about you.
and started to get bothered by everyone else.

everyone wants a special someone.
a special someone who belongs to them.
remember the day when i told u that i had a crush on you.
we talked about expectations,
and everything came true now.

i have my own expectations of myself,
i have my own expectations of you.
i withdrew my expectations of you,
which only seems to hurt me more.
maybe now you will start to understand why i withdrew them all.

you din change
i din change
we din change,
the only difference now compared to last time,
is we fell deeper.

i dont need you to tell me that you miss me,
i dont need you to tell me that you love me.
but i want you to know i miss you,
and i want you to know i love you.

i told you before i din know how to be a good boyfriend.
sorry that im a disappointment.
i know there will always be people there for you.
i want to be there too,
but there are always too many noises before i could reach you.
i read our past convo, i recall our past converstations
i realised i always shut you before you could tell me anything.

supper,
movie,
dinner,
stayovers,
mashed potatos,
our special places.

my silly dodo,
if you ever read this (which i dont know when).
maybe you will understand, maybe you wont.
i admit i was very disappointed that i could not spend your birthday with you.
you are way too popular, and too many people love you.
and that makes me think other wise.

I LOVE YOU.
so?
I MISS YOU.
so?
I CARE FOR YOU.
so?
I WANT YOU.
so?
i always thought im doing things because i love you.
but on your birthday i realised there's another reason to it.
so what if i love you?! your friends love you too.
maybe im different, or maybe im just like any other friend of yours.
but i want you to be happy, smack that wide smile on your face.
i want to be the only hands you need to hold on to, the only person to lead you on.
and that only special person you would wana depend on.

i read it somewhere in your blog before.
you are never the kind that let your emotions show.
i can only guess, i can only feel,
but sometimes i feel that its only me
izit through hugs that i feel?
or kisses that i felt?
are holding hands what i feel it meant?
assurance,
thats what we both need.

all i want is the best for YOU.
you my princess, my love,
my silly dodo
my kaiqi.

happy birthday.

2006-08-14T03:18:00.000+08:00

the cake

the wish

the blowing of candles

the date

the present

the girl of my life.

happy birthday my love.

that smile is what im here for (:

walk out.

2006-08-13T16:27:00.000+08:00

friends. family. kaiqi.
everyone have a chance to walk out on me.

(:

2006-08-10T03:52:00.000+08:00

this is where it all started, where we first held hands.
walk with me, lets be there for each other (:

2006-08-08T01:17:00.001+08:00

catch it.

love it.

save it.

throw it BACK. :)

- twinnie

thank you.

2006-08-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

Thank you my friends,
for walking me through my life.

ps: the photos are not in order.
and i realise i dont have photo graph with alot of people.
people like bird, ting , raine.
whaever it is. thank you.