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exams finally over today... i din sleep fot around 37 hours le.. im dying... but i think im not the only one... Elle finished the paper today and went home.. kinda surprised that they din party right after exams.. hazel came out soon after.. she look so tired >< poor nut...

hais.. the end of the exam marks the end of my year 1 in poly.. im heading to year 2... the end of my class.. we gona split.. i still cant believe.. one moment i was juz entering tp.. now? time dun wait for people...

ya.. i believe in this one year i changed alot... i dun depend so much on others le.. somehow i find myself more mature.. i dun scold vuglarities that often anymore.. that sounded very crude.... i can go places alone now.. i dun need ppl to accompany me.. guess i became more independent le ba..

aw.. im in need of a job! someone please employ me for 2 mths... peep help me take a lookout kie..

hais feelin really down now... someone save me... wished that nut was here....

quote of the day-
walk with me...

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=) L-O-V-E ?? @

elmo ! why did u type such a sad story in your blog ? lols...dun b so depressed all the tym larhs...the world actualli isnt dat sad ma....hahahs...somehow tink dat love to u is lyke sumthing veri sensitive rite ? hahas...in fact...to most of the ppl, probably love is SOOO hurting ba...hahahs...i haf been irritating bs about "love hurts" tis kind of ting...and he disagree...somehow tink dat i rather love other stuffs...like tis and like dat...but i dun reali wan to love a person...coz it is so hard...i am a failure in love isnt it ? hahs...haf u started to feel the same like me...coz u are alwaes so depressed and tinking so sadly abt love de...lols...anyway i wasnt veri affected whether i am single or not...coz it doesnt reali matter much to me...juz hope dat fate doesnt arrange me to meet a guy i love yet he doesnt like me lorhs...i rather be wad i am like now...hahahs...

ELMO !! dun alwaes be so pessimistic in love larhs...hahahs...although i noe tis kind of tings cant be controlled...u noe...many ppl in our grp also face the same problem as u lorhs..hahahs...one good example is zhong....u see how he treat qihui lorhs...hahahs...he dun even noe if he is happie doing it...lols... =X

u wanna be single with mi forever ? i even made a pact with sumone dat if fifty years later i am stil single and unwanted he wil take me..isnt it great ? worse ting is....i dun even haf feelings fer him..lols....u noe...when u turn down someone who likes u....the retribution is...u wil never meet the one u love...haizzz....i am now in the state of half awake-ness so i dun reali noe wad exactly am i speakin...hahahs...but fer one ting...

i rather plant my own garden all by myself...den to wait around for 'him' to bring me flowers. well well...mabbie my tinking wil change some dae...hahahs....

if u haf feelings fer anyone...u shld sae it out b4 everything is too late...even though it might hurt...lols...( the last 5 words was said by kheng =P )

"ni de ai fei hen yuan, xiang hou niao ji jie bian qian....ni wang bei, xiang nan shuo zai jian..."

=)

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a story.... @

He walked home. The same old path he took everyday. Its been nearly 2 years now since it happened. Still memories continute to...

BANG... in that instant, all he could felt is intense pain... fear... his life seemed to flash accross him, his family, his friends, his dream, and her...

They were the perfect friends. Though he held feelings for her for a long time, he never dared to confess to her. The thought of losing her as a friend proved too much to him. Though rumors have been going on around the school that they are already together, neither of them took the step. He waited for her.. she waited for him.. and like that, time passed..

She got herself someone after she graduated from school. Hating himself and feeling sad, he somehow felt happy for her too.. He was happy just because that his special her found her happiness.

However, this was not to be. One day she came crying to him. The next thing he found out, was he was hugging a broken hearted gal crying.. on the same old road. Lossed for words.. the only thing that he could mange to do is to hug her...

He woked up and found himself in the ICU. That instant, he felt his heart failing him, his vision blurred. the last thing he heard was... "dun go! i love u!".. tt voice... of her... the only thing he manged to reply her was... i love.....

and he's gone..

-eLmO-
quote of the day-
u never know when the best thing in ur life is going to be gone... take life in ur hands and dun let fate decide it for u.. its ur life

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i cant seem to sleep nowadays @

im blogging at kheng's house... juz finish playing mahjong... now sitting in front of my com and listening to songs... suddenly all the emotionals seem to flow...

hmmm.. today i ended my 4th exam paper.. 4 down and 1 to go... it seems rather fast... one moment i was juz starting my poly life.. the next im heading to year 2 already... i hate it but we change classes everyday semester... i gona miss the peepz man.. esp tc... cx.. hazel and elle.. they make my day!

hmm wonder what am i going to do during my holiday.. i wanted to move to my katong house and live for 1 mth... but i still have my orientation leadership camp and vietnam trip... duno can make it anot... i wan to find a job... must keep myself tuned and busy.. if not ill slack again.... anyway really looking forward to my year 2... its like a restart button for me... but sad to say classes will be split...

hais.. duno what to say le.. i think i gona log.. bubuais...

quote of the day-
chocolates!

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cant sleep @

i cant sleep! lata having exams at 9.30 am.. hais.. everyday been lidat...

hmmm.. juz now went to see doctor again for my rashes... ow... giv him $45 let him poke needle on me.. now my left hand like no energy.. yay i can eat all kinds of food le! hais. but sad to say some sad things happened....

not going to talk much about it.. im heading for the park to rest my mind.. adidos ppl!

quote of the day-
there is not restart button in life

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DEPRESSED @

its been a super long time since i felt like this... i feel super depressed.. i hate everything im doing and take no heart to do it... what in the blue hell is happening to me?

-study week-
monday - studied with ting shiya and raine..
tuesday - studied with hazel elle and chait
wednesday - studied with ting.. den went overnight to elle house to study with elle and hazel
thursday- studied with hazel and elle in the early monrnings
friday- unproductive!
saturday - unproductive!

damm.. im so farked... i only manged to finish my ob econs and maybe half of stats? whatever it is im so dammed

-friends-
i never beleive in friends..but i can see some of them trying very hard to cheer me up.. hazel and elle.. brought me chocolates to cheer me up... moon chatted with me
trying very hard... and ting.... but somehow or rahter i dun beleive in the idea of friends anymore.. they come and go as they like in my life.... till i no longer have to will to treat them well too... im never like this... i juz hate it.

-bgr-
YAY NO BGR PROBS

hais i duno what to write le.. my mind is damm confused... gonna mug... wish me like kie..

shoutouts-
no one seems to vist my blog le...

quote of the day- died in lala land...

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post exam.. @

omg.. omg.. exams are here..

hmm its been ages since i last blogged.. partly to avoid the unauspious dates.. but mainly becoz im busy...

today i went to study with hazel nut, elf elle and tc... hmm... well what more do u expect when u put 4 nutty together.. elf wore a supa nerdy spects... lols.. nerdy looks giv u more brains... chait went to eat salad without calling us along.. so he got a new name salad face.. feeling rather moody at 1st.. but hazel act retarded and elf brought chocolates to cheer me up =) .. im glad to have these 2 angels by my side...

after studying met up with mh mummy.. sher laopo... yt.. sabby... and zheng xi... ya with song too.. we went for dinnner den to the play... sher went off suddenly and got us reall worried.. but glad shes sound and fine at home le.. laopo if u see this.. next time dun do this again kie... if u wan to go to anyway bring me along! dun forget there are always happy nuts to accompany u! .. after sher went off.. we kinda loooked for her.. but she at home le =)... den we chatted about our future stuff.. its kinda early to chat about these.. who knows if ill live till den?

quote of the day-
chocolates makes ur day

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Rui En!! @

wahhaha ... Rui Be Ke Dang.. is Ruien's offical fan club.. =D

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... @

dun look for me anymore..

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super bored @

ok im fucked.. my sleeping is so fucked... i sleep in the afternoon and wake up at night? argh.. at this rate I WILL NOT BE ATTENDING SCHOOL.. damm it...

hmm... wondering what to blog... nothing much to do acutally.. today is sunday and i sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep for the whole day.... think i going back to bed again.. nites...

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waves... @

hmm... haven been blogging recently nowadays.. well. sometimes i really wanted to blog. but some of the events.. i wonder.. shld be kept secert...

well.. went to pasir ris park yesterday night... haven been there since ages... zhong, qihui, khengwei, moon, zheng xi , meyhuey, boon siang, songlim and me.. when was the last time we all set together facing the sea and chatted? if my memory serves me right.. its on lantern festival last year... ya chatted about numberous of things.. from BGR to studies.. from work to play... maybe im too affected by "it".. its time for my to wake up le...

elmo.. its time for u to wake up.. wake up before its too late... life is to short to ponder and wonder... be decisive... u changed alot since u left secondary sch.. u seemed to lost ur true self since den.. u are unsure of urself.. now u have a mission.. to find urself back...

ps: hitch is a very nice movie.. serious of unforuntated events nt bad too

quote of the day-
successs comes to those who never gives up =X

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