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family day! =X @

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

hmm met up with lionel and pauline for the presentation of T01 and T02... felt i count do alot better.. why are they so afraid of presentation? had a quick lucnh with nicoll and jolyne and pauline + lionel.. after that went to meet ellen..

ellen is muai lao yi.. haha she is in deep shit larhs.. meet me 12.40.. den call me around 1.50 tell me she reaching in 10 mins.. ask me go bus stop pick her up.. in the end i waiting till 2.20 den she reach.. haha.. but i din complain much lar hur.. hmm watch finished the presentation and left to town with daisy pauline and ellen..

lao yi again is irriating. while she was shopping.. she keep comparing her clothes on my body -.-.. and thrw me the shirt on my shoulder if she wants to buy. cant blame larh. im her lao lao gong gong.. (lol lata her bf kill me).. anyway.. baoli called me in the middle.. she forgot her key again..

after seeing monica. daiz went home.. sent elle nto hmv with pauline.. and go meet bao ler.... after that met up with OINKIE.. ting.. shiya.. raine.. and boss.. went to east coast and drink..

though i duno wad they conflict about. i am gnereally happy! u know wad! i am happy!

felt tired though... i love oinkie.. (she took a video of me sleeping).. =D

i could have chatted with her on msn =(

aw well.. nites =\

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blues.. @

hais.. felt very stress! even though the project due date is now way over.. i am still doing my project.. reason being my teamate cannot finish her powerpoint and i have to do it..

frankly speaking im freaking pissed off by her... since i delegated the job to her.. i put my trust on her to finish it.. yet? im a failure as an leader...

oh anyway.. this sem gona be a great one =).. i got 3 CDS this semester! i wana pack my sch everyday.. so that i go home late.. i wana join many clubs.. bsc, rig, gcc and maybe even SU and mentors! i wana.. i wana... i wun have time for other thinngs..

this might be a good thing though... never before i felt so happy even when having so much stuff to do..

my birthday is around the corner.. im getting 18 soon! but i dun wana be 18.. looking back, 17 is a changing year for me... oh ya.. i am not goin to celebrate my brithday.. neither will be i collecting any presents.. save it dun buy.. u might not even see me on my birthday..

i like my new semester in sch.. new friends.. new subject.. new hope.. but why do i feel depressed every now and then?

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i loveee my freshieee.. @

i love my freshieeeee~ orientation for sch just rocked big time for me..

hmm.. im very busy and packed with stuff nowadays... in case u haven noticed i wun contact u peepz anymore... i gave up.. ive pressed the restart button on my life..

initally was very tried, reluctant to go for the orientation camp.. coz i only had ONE hour of sleep the day before (and 12 hours of KBOX).. anyway... i got to be in charge of RETAIL MANAGEMENT, the 1st pionerr batch, and the smallest cohord of the whole business school.. 85 people.. got my freshie to introduce themselves and stuff.. in the end of the day... RM was the best diploma (YES WE BEAT HTM)..

ah bleah.. i not going to chat alot of things about the orientation.. i TOO LAZY to type.. anyway.. im enjoying my life now... at least for now.. i dun feel THAT depreseed anymore..

=)

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blog war... @

why are people using blog to create war? whatever i post people have to comment?

please dun be sick... dun comment on my posts...

ps: sorry oinkie.. i was only joking about my pic.. i noe u put in alot of effort kie... sorry for my un-tactful words ><

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labels.. @

thnx sher for the last post....

wasnt going to comment on her post though... but if u realised i no longer blog about them anymore..

hmm.. for the past few weeks i notice a trend.. a trend of people labelling me! im labelled as an EMO, a flirt, a gay-.- ... but above all the negative stuff... im labelled as a mr nice guy... but someone told me im too good for my own good.. i doubt so..

why are people always labelling or sterotyping other individuals? nothing better to do? i AM not a flirt.. a flirt goes out to know girls for an evil intendtion... i dun.. i juz KNOW girls becoz i do... i AM EMO.. i get pissed and sad over the slightest stuff... and lastly I AM NOT A GAY.. let me put it this way..not that im not inteerested in girls .. its that i am not interetsted in having a girlfriend in the moment.. get it? so stop calling me gay... =)

eLmO

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firstly. she will be happy. though i duno is who. lols. secondly. i think she wants you to be equally happy too. if you are not happy. what for wanting others to be happy when you know dat seeing you not happy isnt going to make her happy as well ? wad the. lols. i aso duno wad am i typing. hahahs. since we are toking about being happy. elmo i ask u arhs.

wad is happy de surname.
wad is happy de occupation.
wad is happy de sex.

whahahs. i noe its lame. hey u are no better k. we are lame people. lame arse. lame freaks. dats wad make us click rite. dont alwaes say you are alone. you can cos u tink u can. u are never alone unless u tink so. yarhs. the world is cold. only when you prefer to stand alone. you may like to be alone. but that is only your sub consciousness doing. dont let your heart rule over your brain so often.

hmm i duno if u heard of tis or not. there is tis guy who lost his memories over an accident. while the girl he loves. and also loved him alot. tried to regain the memories in it. hmm but no matter how hard she tried. the guy doesnt really believe cos he tinks the feelings are not dere. besides he cant remember everything at all. but he noes there is something strange. he may not believe the girl's stories. but whenever the girl told him abt their memories together. though he cant remember at all. his heart instead felt veri sour and pain. he aso duno y. BECAUSE the brain may have lost his memory. but the heart did not. the heart still recognises who u are. but doesnt haf the ability like the brain to portray it out.

hahahs. ilooove this story mans. moral. u may think u wanna be alone. u may think u doesnt need friends. you may think you are just an extra or someone unknown in tis world. you may think your frens are no longer who and wad they are anymore. you may think u are depressed.

but...u doesnt want to be alone or else u wil lock yourself up everyday. and i mean ALL the time. if u dont need frens you wont keep hanging out with dem. laugh at their jokes. pissed off by their actions. or wad. if u reali dont care. you wont even get pissed off at all. u wont even call the other party who was injured to comfort dem. u wont even blog. u wont even care. but u didnt. u cared. this is not kpo. concerning and kpo is different. kpo is keep asking and asking and den spread false rumours around. and alwaes gossiping about the same thing. if asking a few qns out of concern is kpo. den i am a kpo and u are indirectly saying all of us. SO NO ! if no one in the world cares about anythong anymore. there is no longer love care and concern. yarhs. dat time the world wil reali be cold. and lifeless.

you may think you dont need us. dont need friends. dats ur brain. but when something happened to us. you heart hurts. you hope we are getting better. you feel the pain for us. dats ur heart. depressed and being quiet is yor brain. but u still smiled. even if it is once in 10 yrs. depressed dont smile AT ALL. dats your heart.

=) done.

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winddyyy @

its so windy and freaking cold outside... im thinking about those stray cats and dogs... they must be feeling damm hungry and cold now... i wana brinig towel for them to cover!!! poor things....

am i thinking too much? now i feel animals are more better creatures... at least they dun vent their angry at u.. backstab u.. or anything esle..

i lost faith...

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restart @

it seem that i pressed a restart button to my life...

blog surfed today... look like everything is in place again... not really my problem already though.. hmm.. mellie cheer up... i want YOU to be HAPPY okie? tengy sorry out plan backfired..

looked through my pictures i have in my computer.. gosh.. everyone changeg so much.. including me.. from the smiles to the tears... from a nerd to a punk... suddenly the future look so foggy for me..

i wish i could turn back time... make no mistakes this time round... maybe ill come out as a better man..

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=( @

i wan her to be happy =(

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disgusted... @

im really pissed..

wtf ok.. elmo u kaypo.. stay out of this.. im telling myself this.. yet i can stand it to see those idiots killing each other... aw fuck.. i dun give a damm now.

-Happy BiRthday ting-

hmm celebrated ting's birthday yesterday.. i duno how she felt?.. coz it was planned.. she is surpose to go over the places that she normally go.. its called a memory walk.. somehow or rather i din think she felt really happy though...

something happened.. people around me are all wearing maskes.. whatever it is i dun consider them as anyone now.. i felt disgusted and disgraceful to know even this kind of people... i go erase them out of my life..

fuck those people

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bitch.. @

everyone is bitching around!

im a used puppet.. being stabbed and stabbed again.. maybe thats how i got my name.. elmo.. a used puppet.. hardly able to stand on its own.. but have to put on a happy face..

in this cruel world.. u cant trust anyone.. not even urself... sometimes ur decision will make ur life sadder...
the answer to why u cant trust people is... human nature.. we care only about ourselve being.. becoz of that.. we tend to hurt others... in such a way we dun even know we are hurting them... life is full of shit.. we all are shit.. yes.. including me.

for all u know.. i might juz backstab anyone of u reading this..

dun trust anyone..

theres not true love.. true love is unconditional..

im drifting away..

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i hate myself =(

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good vs bad @

times goes by.. no time to cry...

time is a really scary thing.. it can bond people.. and can separated people... from what i see... time is having a negative impact on my life.. simply i get attached to something/someone too easily...

i am no longer to be that way awaymore...

i used to get attached to people easily.. after which i found out that people usually will make use of ur trust in them... or make use of urself for benefits of their own. is this world that bad? mainly speaking.. yarh.. i think so... people are selfish. they only care about their own benefits. who is willing to stand out when theres danger and crisis within ur friends, family or relative?

im still being easily attached to people... but thankfully.. not to the extend where i get used easily.. someone told me.. a person must have some temper... if not people will climb over ur head.. a person musnt be that good.. if not people will juz start making use of you... i personally dun believe that.. i believe if i treat people good.. people will treat me in the same way i treat them.. law of giving.. my law...

but somehow.. after the vietnam trip... i felt that there wasnt a need to compy to my rule anymore... i live life for myself.. i dun own anyway..

perharps.. i should put on a mask.. so they wun worry about me anymore...

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vietnam trip.. @

DAY 1..

was late upon arriving at the airport.. phew luckily everyone was there...i din really know anyone from the course.. i mean not really close.. but turn out to be super fun.. i hate breakfast with jacky in the airport.. he later brought me aroudn the airport.. was surpised they actually have a swimming pool in the airport.. cool eh? anyway me and jacky was late.. coz we went to gate 57 instead of 37.. phew.. glad we caught the flight in time...
it was my 1st time on the plane.. no one chatted to me >< i sleep thoughout the trip..
arrived at vietnam- saigon.. our destination.. had lunch at blue ginger... eating vietnam food was a eye opener... anyway.. we heeaded down to our hotel.. metropole hotel.. not bad larh.. after that we went to the war meusum.. war is a very sad thing indeed... in the night went shopping.. and found our best pub in HCM.. GoGO..

highlight of the day- our class geled.. we brought the vietnam shirt =D

Day 2...
IDIOT SHIREEN..(3rd laopo).. wake me up so early.. surpose to wake up around 7.30 vietnam time.. she woke me up at 7.30 SINGAPORE time.. which means its 6.30 in vietnam.. i was damm blur though.. after i bathed den i realised the time... was the 1st few to be at the cafe of the hotel ..
our first stop of the day was at some caodaism temple.. a religion i dun really like.. the idea of having 4 god in one temple living in harmony is juz a fairy tale.. our next stop was at the famous cu chi tunnel... on the bus i duno why super HIGH... play game to gel my mates even more.. omg.. we did alot of forfit.. i got kissed.. jacky kissed nicholl... we got ruhua and alot of pole dancing...
when we reached.. i was really amazy by the determination of vietnamese... they actualyl dug underground to survive the american bombings... and even built school and hospital undergound... we ourselves went into the tunnel ourvels.. and was already complining about the heat... aw well.. before we went in.. some of the guys went to try the live firing.. damm coool...
we went to the hotel. bathed up and out we went for dinner with our tutor... after that went to GOGO again for drinking.. was really high... forfiet of the day went to wenbin and jolyene!

highlight of the day- i made 4 laopos! lol. ellen, monica, shireen and daisy! i got 6 forfiet in a day!

DAY 3-
day 3 was boring .. damm tired for me.. so slept for quite long... had a little mood swing.. coz things flowed into my mind.. aw well.. we visited the historical meuseum.. went shopping a little with shireen.. after that went to saigon center (the grandest building in HCM).. did a little shopping.. went back to hotel.. i slept a little after swimming.. after that we went to have dinner with 4 tutors and my class tagged along... mr albert paid the bill.. he such a nice guy

highlight of the day- i din drink today! i found out water puppet is cool!

Day 4-
dang.. the big day for my class.. we had to present stuff to the vietnamese people.. ayway we wore formal on tt day.. visit the Vietnam Singapore Industrial park... after that had lunch at a singaporean-owned golf resort.. damm nice.. visit the internation universtiy there.. the students there damm fun!... made alot of friends...after that visted the orphanage.. daisy cried on the bus >< duno why.. anyway.. went to club again on that day.. with my 4 laopo.. asked about questions.. details are not to be revaled here

Day 5-
was the final night at HCM... we did alot of stuff man... though it was pretty free and easy.. we visited the universtiy in the morning... had alot of fun.. after that we did our shopping at ben dao market... brought a numeber of things with lionel and shireen... at night went drinking until we all high.. best night so far..

Day 6-
as u can see.. my entry getting shorter.. really missed the day in HCM... was kinda hang over in the morning.. went shopping with jolynen.. wenbin and pauline.. brought all the stuff for my baobies in SG... after that we took the bus to the airport.. flight was kinda delayed.. so i hanged out with ellen and monica a little.. and my class mate boycotted mE! lol.. sort of i guess.. im seated beside daisy while monica and ellen are infront of me in the plane.. ellen not feeling well i guess.. think shes beta le ba.. daisy cried again! i duno why... anyway really missed HCM.. i hope one of these days my buddies of GC can visit HCM or other places again..

highlight of the day-
the nightsky of singapore....

Vietnam Ho Chi Minh- SAigon.. we miss u

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im back from saigon... hell of a trip... will blog if i have the time.. for the time-being.. i going MIA... try asking me out.. ill choose who go to with..

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