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why? @

i feel fucking down.. i duno why..


i went to the doctor today.. think doctor understood my needs and gave me pills.. 4 packets in totoal.. i have to take 8 onace i reach home.. how i wish those were killer pills and i would die after eating that..

well.. chatted with mh, sher, moon and kheng.. conference on the phone juz now... though they sound really happy... coz they were crapping ma.. i juz put down the phone.. fuck.. im feeling fucking sad.. i duno why....

why why why... my life is almost perfect.. i got a nice family... as in its not that bad.. though i dun believe in the idea of friends.. i still have friends around me... i dun yearn for a BGR... i dun need one.. why why why...

perherps there are too many things i did to disappoint myself.. too remorseful to state... maybe its all coming back to me...

his footsteps