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everything changes. @

i realised how much my life and friends changed.

my oinkie. my melody.

went i just met her. i never thought that we could click.
but eventually we did.
i still remember the oinkie.
who used to cry suddenly during our Kbox session, and suddenly laugh and smile at another moment.
who used to toture me with those &*(%)^% * stuns and ignore me at the other.
who tried to stop smoking for a month (LOL).
who i remembered to bring back a pack of cigerates for her when i came back from malaysia.

but now. i see oinkie smiling everyday.
reading sms and smiling.
but shes thinks too much.
oinkie all ur friends are happy for u.
love is something that is so powerful right?
everyone is busyyy... but no matter what we will try to meet up.
and even though those meet up might not be that frequent.
we still feel "attached" to each other right (I KNOW U WANA SAY TAO YAN. SHH).

on the other hand...

i remember that ting.
that never stops jumping. even when she walks.
who never fail to bright up my day.
with her laughter, and irriatingness.
who made my secondary school near perfect.
with those cool hats. silly badges. and funky bags

but now..
she cries, she cuts..
ting been through so much.
she no longer jump or hop to sch anymore..
she drags her feet..
yet i sit here helplesss..

and i remember raine.
who lent me countless homework to copy..
whos the hardworking one that sits behind me for my secondary 4.
who have grown prettier over the years..

bbut now..
shes troubled.
it always been a hard route for her.
she whine, she complains.
but she never gives up.
the old strong raine that always i knew.

not forgetting kuanli and regina.
whom i have held dearly.
but everyone left after that.
but just like the old times.
we never fail to brighten each other up during our meetings.

and me?
i duno how much i changed.

my life been up and downs.
i OWE my life to many of my friends out there.
those times at brother[x]
those times at SOX.
these times at poly.
these times at my unions.

did i change? tell me more about it.

its been a great 2005.
yet i dun wana move on..

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ROAR @

IMPORANT ANNOUNCEMENT.

THERE WILL BE NO PARTY AT MY HOUSE THIS YEAR.
I REPEAT.
NO PARTY.

This is because everyone's so lazy.
lazy to reply me.
lazy to confirm with me.

and best of all.
im lazy to chase.

FUCK ALL OF U . MAY U HAVE A ROTTEN YEAR AHEAD.

pardon me for those who had replied and chased me. but it aint going to happen.

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beauty and the beast. @

ROAR.

king kong is nice.
a beautiful story between a beast and a beauty.
even beast will take their initative.
wheres mine?

went to sch for project in the morning. everything went well.
met up with manda, her bf and jocelyn.
procced with king kong with amanda.
after that met up with rachy.

met 2 new friends today. faye and felicia.

had a complicated day.
but ill move on.

ill rather fall in love with a beast.

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merrry xmas! @

merry xmas everyone!
din have the time to blog..

haa. went for xams party at my new house.
i finally seen all my hardwork out!
the house look beautiful with all the lights and stuff.

after then went to town with fuad, gab, and some other gcc friends.
went to nydc and slack. food was nice.
went to balcony to slack. nice music and stuff. expensive though.

yesterday went to bsc outing. with maisia, fuad, dan , gab, qing cai and maizia.
brought mazia a skirt. i brought myself a shirt.
brought dar! a xmas prezzie!

have been shopping around for manda's prezzie.
cant find the design i wanted.

im still deciding party or club at new year eve.
even if its party i wun invite all sox people.

im so happy =)

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happy! @

exams OVER!

muahahah

celebrated with a "class-outing". lol. went for pool with mervo, jun, hanwei , sikai jansie and chao yan. ok la.. so-so lor. after that procceed to change. after that met up with manda and joce.! 7 ballS! lol.

had a walk with manda round the mall. someone spotted me and sms me asking who is she. its all up to ur imagination.

after that met up with my precious, OINKIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. i noe its long, but i duno how long was it since i last met my OINKIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. im realy happy for her! oinkie! oinkiE!!!!! im really happy for u~ ur boyfriend de car very nice ley *drools*.

proceed to club with 13 people, whom most of them i duno who. lol. anyway i cant drink well man. danced on the dance floor surrouned with 6 girls! HEH. lol. anyway i puked on my way home.

IM SO HAPPY. i duno why~

DANCE. DRINK. FORGET. ENJOY. PUKE. YES!

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i wana. @

i met her up today.
and spent the time meaningfully.

went for ice cream. com lab. and libary.

we chatted.
family, friends, horoscope, relationship

if i could , i wana keep her to myself.
i wish no one was between us.
i wish it could be that simple.

if i could,
i wana do things with her.
i wana let her in my life, my family, my friends, my everything
i wana bring her away.

i wished i could have the courage.
i wished i could bring her around. to places and experience what we will never experience.

i wana talk her to sleep.
i wana sweet talk to her.
i wana to treasure her.

but i cant.

i dun wana turn ugly.

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@

MERRY CHRISTMAS ! hohoho.
=D

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reflection. @

reflection.
came to think of some reflection.

back in the secondary sch days, i broke someone's heart.
ok, not one but 2.
i wasnt ready. im simply too childish.
i learnt the hard way.

till today. perharps im not ready enuff.
i din gather enough courage to tell someone.
or maybe i hestiated too much.
but what i did might be right.
a crush or fallen. i din noe.
but all i noe is.
even if i really like her,
or maybe love,
we dun really have to be together.
all matters is that shes happy.

ive grown. =)

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=D @

friends. studies . school . family.

im better off lidat

=D

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exams disorder. @

ah shit.

one day before the exams
i fell sick.

screw the exams
screw the projects
screw myself.

i miss her

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a write out @

few years ago, i was like any other individual.
but i lived without a goal..

i miss the time back then.

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this week hasnt been the best of the week. however things went pretty well for me. my project, project xmas, was approved on monday.

student fourm was on tue. everyone went on fine.
i went shopping with fuad and angie, that bugger left me and angie at ikea.
we shopped till 7. when we reach sch it was 7.30
we decorated till 2.
splendid.
but we had classes at 9am the next morning.

thur was great.
candy floss.
i met her.
i spent most of my day with her infact.
=)

im so confused now.
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friends @

friends leave and goes in ur life.
rmb those who stay (i duno who said this. izzit jane or oinkie?)
but its quite true.

i seen people come.
and seen people leave.
its quite sad.
one moment u are close. one moment u felt alone.
yet u have no one to turn to.
or u choose to keep ur problems to urself.

i have decided
to throw away all my problems.
or at least put them aside.
i wana know more about my friends
i wana help my friends.
those who are facing something diffcult.
please tell me.
esp those closer to me.

i still wan her for xmas~

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check this out! @

hey peepz. check the following links out!
they really made me feel better after feeling shitty,

http://www.youtube.com/?v=asuWsQ959FE
http://www.youtube.com/?v=722PlY_F4Aw
http://www.youtube.com/?v=zkPBnCZyfgc

lol!

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.... @

i feel so vex. so bothered.
its another lousy day..

i added a wishlist! woot!

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leave me alone. @

i realised there are more and more dumb people around.
really they are.

look. someone asked me to do a contact list from 100 people in the F&B industry, so as we can request for sponsorships later. e question is. when u have a limit. u tend to add in redundent stuff for sponship.

imagine i add in dial-a-curry. "hello can i know more about ur curry? i would like to have sponsorship of curry".

ya i understand the benefit of doing this. but sometimes u have to HEAR us out.

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went clubbin yesterday, only with 3 other peepz.
cheeky monkey was fun.
4 people clubing was fun too.
oh i took cab 7 times in a day.
i went for ellen's birthday.

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each day slacking is one day lost.
i decided to work super hard.

at least i forget about my unpleanst stuff.

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i miss amanda! miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss .

going bonkers le =\

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broken down. @

i had finally broken down.
really broken down.

i laught at myself. about the stuffs i did. about the things i do. and the plans i made.
its silly. nothing gona happen. i feel so stupid. so dumb. so useless.
im just another piece of trash.

i tried to be myself. i tried. i tried. i tried.
its no use. no matter how hard i try nothing changes.

im sorry. to my friends. to my family. to all those who cared for me.
im sorry. i gona turn back the old days. the days of attitude problem and mood swings. blastin music and crying at the beach.

nope im nt going to cry this time.

im really useless.
i cant get a simple thing right.
perhaprs im a burden to this world.
no one cares.
face it junquan.

face it junquan........

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definaton of love. @

i just realised my blog name is hidden space.
this means that i can reveal any darkets secert that i have.

defination of love.

love n(1): A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

what is the true defination of love? I guess even great philosophers canot give you the answer.

ineffable feeling of affection, strong word to use.
i duno. i cant define love. perhaprs i lost that feeling long ago.
till i forgot how sweet, how painful it felt.

what if a penguine fell in love with a chicken?

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finally my project is on the way.
guys i am doing pre-sales of shirt next week. please do support me.
the designs are really cool.

oh ya. today on my way to sch, a girl smiled at me. and i duno who is her..
wierd HEH. alot of people said im becoming more and more good looking.
i dun think so. afterall i am still myself.

short and ugly me.

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jac got into the next round of star idol.
carry on supporting her!

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confused. @

unreachable.

yeps thats the word that can describe what im feeling.
had a chat with jo and val regarding looks VS character.
so what if they are hot? so wad if they have good looks?

but reality is so painful. looks do matter.
let me see. i neither have looks or height.
neither do i have a nice character or nor i know how to sweet talk.
haa. dosent matter. ill find someone who appreciate me as who i am~

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oh ya jacqueline hainv her second round tml! must remember to vite kie! sms F1 to 71888!

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vex double @

weekends~ my long awaited week end is here.
shiat! mid sem test 2 weeks more!

i got something from amanda today! so darn happy! for some reasons i keep bumping into her for the pass few weeks. she actually brought me an elmo. so happy lor! but somehow, duno who start all this crap, when im online someone said we so fast already 1 mth liao got to exchange present! CRAP la! haha..

on the other hand. i quite vex and troubled. i never wanted to doubt any of my teammates. but really, its often me at lectures. kinda scary thoough, becoz i attend lectures with notes. im really at my wit's end. but i shall nt giv up my hope on them. go junquan go. u can do it

met up with kun, jony today for the movie aeonflux. it was quite ok but not really worth the movie! i got the chicken landyard for some of my friends (stole actually). haha!

im so vex now. im so confused.
i wana move on. but somehow i cant forget my past, or maybe my past had led me to have a phobia to carry and start a new life. when i took the bus to kun's house today, when the bus passes East View Secondry School. memories just flow. in that instnat i felt happy.

i think its time for me to grow up. look things in a bigger perspective. i wana be someone strong, someone confident, mentally and emotionally...

i think raine is right. one might not need to have such a big circle of friends, but a few precious one around will do.

i hope to meet up with my baobeis/bitches or sox this weekend!

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vexed @

hmm. saw jac got into the next round of star idol. im really happy for her. but at the same time worried about my project. in fact most of my group mates are worring me. keep saying not much to do, but i already listed the things to be done. never ending. but i never once gave up on them, but i believe everyone have their ablitites. i may sound very hositle the last post, pardon me but im desprated to get things done.

haha i voted once! grats Jac. fufil ur dreams ba.

i woke up at 11am, thinking my school starts at 1pm. i checked my time table. 11 -1pm RM tutorial. i rush down to sch, luckily i did, if not yanling and jun might had died. the best thing is roche ask:

why are u late?
i not going to give any excuses sir, i overslept

lol. u should see his reaction. he stunned.

nvm i mark u presentm dun do it again.

thats how i got away.

had bsc meeting today, im in chrage of a new project, Project Xmas.
im so excited.

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maybe im too insensitive, to the words i use, to the people around me.
saw dewgong today. i din realsie her friend was crying until eli told me.
sorry la! that proves something oso okay! met up with dewgong again around evening time. i have so much to tell her!

suddenly i fall into depression again.
looking at my workload. looking at my commitmments.
i wana do well~ i wana tell others i can do it~
i think of my friends, i think of them
i dun understand what they are thinking, i cant help them either

im really vex and on the edge of falling into it again.

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