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so much things happend since i last blogged.

let me see.
i passed my driving lisence on 25th.
and i found out how materistic most girls can be.
this dosent refer to my close friends who visited my house on CNY.

the moment i passed my lisence.
and drove to sch.
all the teh started..
"i love u.. i miss u.. drive me ley".
thanks ar. i got enough love already . stay away man.

and being so nice, of coz i drove my classmates around.
my first passenger was yiting.
then my class guys. jun. merv. jinsiong. hanwei. andrew.
drove around and had fun.
yup. fun. thats what i called car havoc.

BUT. $237 in around 6 days for petrol.
car drink lesser okay?

had my new year gathering yesterday.
with the peepz i loved.
enjoyed myself?. yup.
but something is missing.
its as if some part of my life has been taken away.
we dun feel close anymore.
but yes. i still do love them.
as much as they would love me.

im gona wait for my lisence to come.
and go test drive the suzuki swift.
maybe the promoter there will ignore me.
and you guys noe i hate ppl who looks down on us.
wait for more stuns from me.

HAPPY CNY.

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sox READ @

SOX PLEASE READ.
hey.
every is busy nowadays rite?

busy with studies.
busy with school.
busy with pa-toring (OPPS).
couples couples couples.
till we dun meet up so often.

I HAVE A PROPOSAL.

chinese new year.
the visiting of each other houses.
to recieve each other blessings
the old traditional SOX way.

DATE: U GUYS CHOOSE. dun choose chu er. got something on le.
VENUE: my house can come. song? sabby?

PLEASE CONTACT ME AND UPDATE ME SOON!

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once @

felt all terrible recently.
i flare up easily.

had a talk. once drift apart, it is diffcult to come back.
its that true for all relationships?
even friendships?
i dun wana think about this.
the thought of dirfitng apart from everyone is scary.
i dun wana lose them

had an ice cream session with dar! today.
party is to celebrate my completion of my crm project.
i realised how much i missed my past, like i always do.
recently. though my friends,
i saw a reflection of myself. and i smile.

the process of liking someone.
and not knowing how he/she feels about you is wierd.
yet you only get this feeling once.
weather if the relationship move on.
its still once.

i learnt the hard way.
not to give wrong signals.
i hurt her.
so the advaice i gave.
was to. tell the person that you are not interested.
in that way. u hurt him less.

love is such an amazing thing.
"you should not let a failed relasitnship tie you down"
many tell me that.
yes.
but its not easy for me to move on.
everytime i wana start afresh.
ill think again.
and think.
till its too late.

its time to face the truth.
ill never be with you.. (lycris from "Its Beautiful"

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CHINESE NEW YEAR UPDATE! @

UPDATE!

confirmed on chu er ! come my pasir ris house bai nian.
there will be steamboat. food. mahjong. liquor. wadeva it is.
its time for us to catch up!

invited are:
jane.
oinkie.
jie feng.
ting .
xiong.
gy.
qing fang.
raine .
bs.
sl.
hg.
jo.
kuan li.
jordan.
kuan jie.
regina.
hanwei.
roubin.
cherie.

sorry but those attached de please try not to bring ur steads along. (jie feng, jordan, and hanwei nvm, course i know them). broke a!
oh ya. if you guys want come up with something to do on that day or wad.
wana stay over oso no problem!

contact me to confirm that u are coming okayy?

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FUCK MY GROUP MATES @

FUCK MY GROUP MATES.
WHATEVER IT IS. I GONA MARK THEM DOWN.
YES. MARK THEM DOWN.

if you think its unfair. think again.

i fucking collect my goods alone. 3 fucking bags i fucking carry them back
and i fucking bring them to sch.
and fucking bring them home.
i fucking counted them.
and fucking handle most orders.
all they did was collect money and talk.
fuck i oso know how to talk

today is fucking saturday.
and fuck u again.
while u all fucking go out with ur friends
i fucking stay at home and do the fucking CRM.
and now i have to fucking go return the stocks
and fuck how to do carry 3 bags.

and hey.
fuck.
becoz of this project.
i fucking neglect my friends
i fucking neglect my commitments in my club.
i fucking spoil my speakers.
and fucking throw my hp all around becoz im angry

listen to me.
fuck u.
may ur dicks or pussies rot in hell.

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this feeling @

im getting this sinking feeling again.

completed my retailing in action.
comparing the other 2 classes.
i think my class performed much much better.
atsomphere was there. so was the traffic.
most of us managed to break even.
had so much fun running around in 1st Avenue.
shouting. kicking. playing.
blasting music. luffing.

but so much happend.
i prepare till 6am in the morning.
jun was late.
yanling din come.
everything went bad.
so did my temper.
but its over.

recently im getting back that feeling again.
the feeling of feeling depressed.
i call people up.
no one picks up.
everyone's busy.

maybe its the workload.
5 members.
1 deffered. 1 blur. 1 busy. 1 always sicky.
me?
take retail management.
looking for stock. collecting stock. bring stock. set up.
sell. bring back stock. fuck. basically i completed everything. ALONE.

and all these? i get shit.
no use being so fucking nice when no one appriciates.
im being discrminated by my clubs.
HEY. get this right
MARKETING IS NO FUCKING JOKE DIPLOMA
FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK YOUR WORKLOAD IS HIGHER THAN US.
AND FUCK U AGAIN IF U COMPARE.

may all the fuckers rot in hell.

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important! @

here it is!

IMPORTANT

CHU ER of CHINESE NEW YEAR.
31st Jan 2006 (izzit)
@ my Pasir ris house.
Steam boat and pai nian!

raine. ting. xiong. oinkie. jiefeng. jane. cherie. roubin. bs. sl. hg. joseph. gy. qf.

tell me if i left out anyone from our clique

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dead @

im seriously dead.

let me see.

RM shop opens tml.
IM and RM Individual journal due on fri.
CRM project report due on monday
Advertising and promition report due on wednesday.
Presentation week the following
DRIVING TEST on presentation week.

not forgetting RM and IM group report.

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Will @ TP @

went for Will @ TP yesterday.

ran twice for the event.
1st attempt i ran 3 times, becoz they only limit us to 3 times.
2nd attempt i ran 27 rounds.

total of 3o rounds. which means 12km.

haven been running for like how many years.
and i made it.

im so darn proud of myself.

but i kinda injured myself.
im walking like i lost my virginty or wad.
muscle ache.
nevertheless.
PROUD

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2nd @

2nd post of year 2006.

removed sabby, prisy and sher from admin access to my blog.
realised that my blog actually means something to me.
why share it?

i decided.
in this new year.
i gona be close to those who matter to me.
u wont see me waving and saying hi to all those people i duno anymore.
neither would i be bothered to introduce myself to someone new.
i see no point in it anymore.

friends come and go.
yeps.
drastic it may be.
changed so much very one weeek.
things had been building up anyway.

no longer the one you all used to know.
or maybe u guys dun understand the real me.

let me see. this xmas.
brought 3 presents, rachel, pris dar! and manda.
din excect rachel to buy me something.
she actually remember about me.
how nice of her =).

from someone whom i din contact for a year.
who expected it?

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1st post of 2006 @

heres the 1st post of 2006.

recieved 63 New Year Wishes SmS yesterday.

Of which 40 of them said "cheer up elmo"
18 of them were from unknown people (meaning i dun have their numbers)
11 of them callled me "dear"
10 of them were received in this morning
none of them were special.

thanks everyone for the wishes.

but i dun think 2006 will be a happy one for me.
no new year resolutions.
coz nothing will come true.

ill be realistic.
down to earth.
do my things.
get my diploma
pass my driving lessons.

no point saying "world peace, i hope my friends to be happy, i wan her"
those are just illusions.

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