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desperate @

nowadays.. i realised i hardly have someoen to turn to when im bored or down.
i used to have shiying, dewgong, dar.. etc..
but everyones been so busy.
either with projects, work, school, or their own lives.

let me demostrate.
a typical bored me in sch. looking for someone to whine about.
down i scroll down the list.

ms koh. - she have her own problems.. and besides. i din need to whine to her about my probs.she just knows them.
ms huang. - shes not someone i would whine to. but someone i would seek solution from.
ms chan. - where did my fav ms chan xiao ting went?
ms ho. - not someone i will whine to.
ms lim. - not someone i will whine to.
ms boo - LOL. no hp number
dewgong - shes so busy pa tor pa tor pa tor. slap her!
dar! - busy~

etc etc.. other than those, i cant think of anyone i could turn to for my problems.
its either i FEEL wierd talking to them, or i cant bring myself to talk to someone whose attached.

i dun wana be tagged as a relationship breaker.

oh ya.. having desperate as the title of this post.
brings me to another point.
so far i recieve 3 dates for valentine's day.
but i turned them down.
coz i wun wana date someone who likes my car.. my cash.. my card.. but not me.
REALISTIC BITCHES. STAY FAR.
oh. every year its a traditon of me giving out roses
since secondary two.
i rmb i ordered 20 roses then.
the following year 30.
sec 4 i order 10 (becoase im attached then).
i gave out 40 last year.
this year i wun be giving out roses anymore...
i wana be abit selfish.
most of my precious found their happiness already.
can i save the roses for myself?

his footsteps