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relationships @

Like everyone asked me over and over again.
Is ting my girlfriend?
Is raine my girlfriend?

No. They would have made such great wives for me. But seriously NO.

Its been since secondary school, we have been close every since.
(In the process raine changed 1 boyfriend, ting, on the other hand, I dint count. LOL)

To me, both of them are like sisters to me. They are a part of my family, sometimes I even include them in my family dinners too.

They stood by me, during my rainy days. During exams we studied together, and even during festival seasons we celebrate together.

During this 6 Years of friendship, I seldom quarrel with them. Most of the quarrels are my fault, with those seriously mood swings and attitude problems. On the bright side, among 365 days per year, we meet at least 330 Days. That goes on to say how close we are.

This leads me to a question, can friendship really turn into romance?

For example, what if one day you peeps go out seeing me and raine or ting holding hands?
HAHA. IMPOSSIBLE.

But yet, how can you possibly make someone your partner when you do not really know him/her ? Yet most people go into relationship after knowing that person for 2 weeks to 2 months.
Puppy love? I dont think so, we are now 19, going 20.
In a few more years ting and raine gona be mothers.
The others are getting married, having their own families.

Im jus asking a random question.

Look at the possibilities below.
me and rachel.
me and oinkie.
me and ele.
me and joyce.
me and bird.
me and jac.
me and yeeteng.
me and sabby.
me and sher.

LOL.

Thus I conclude, if you really fall with someone, act fast, before the feeling fade away.


Im drifting away, as they form a clique.
Everyone have their own friends, I have mine too.
But why am I feeling this?

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drifted @

im drifted away.
as soon as the school started.







move on move on..

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move on. @

move on move on.
theres aint gona be any result.
theres no privacy in my blog.
even though lock, password can be easily retrived.
move on..

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wierd @

im having wierd dreams recently.

dreams as such, i dreamt of all my friends since sec 1 till now.
and it ended with the xiaobais.
i dreamt about my future, as though im living in it.

visited TM today,
watched the movie election 2 and 8 Below.
8 below was a nice moive, must be said.
while waiting for the movie to start,
a bunch of girls, walked towards me and said "elmo!"
i said hi and walked of..
in my mind "do i know them?"

my eye lips have been jumping alot recently.
low right one. its been 2 weeks.
and theres a bad feeling about this.
i checked my traffic offence, but none seemed to be entered into the data.

sometimes, you have to lower your expectations.
just to prevent more disappointment.




let it go. let it go.

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heartbeat @

da dum. da dum.
the sound of my heart beat.
da dum da dum da dum da dum.

my luck's changed.
i finally won mahjong.
and i say finally becoz
I FINALLY WON in the MONTH of APRIL.
FINALLY.

da dum da dum..
da dum da dum da dum da dum.

u know what i mean.

ps: sorry xiaobais. nv get enough sleep today thats why just now like abit tired. i love u all KAY! <3

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sch. @

school starts today.

time for a new start.

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more than words @

more than words to describe.

ive met a girl recently.
that made my heart beat twice as fast.
made me worried. made me laught.

i need to know her better.

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holidays are finally over @

holidays are over.
2 more days, school gona start.

its that time again, to press the restart button, and switch on back to study mode.
somehow im reluctant to do it.
im being such an emo freak recently.
puberty? HAHA.
i just wana stop thinking about everything.

finally got the chance to meet up with song. ting. xiong. and guangyang.
played pool instead of movie in the end.


i guess change is just a part and parcel of life.
maybe im too hard on myself.

heres something to end off with

Friends
And
Memories
I
Love
You.

please dont let it be

Friends
And
Memories
I've
Lost
You.

break away from that piece of my heart.

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BSC @

Name: Soh Jun Quan
Sch: Temasek Polytechnic BUSINESS SCHOOL
Club: BUSINESS STUDIES CLUB AY 05/06
Designation: Marketing Communications

Awards:
loads of friends, love , care, and happiness
BEST Diploma Award, CCM and LRM (marziah and me)!
BEST SCHOOL AWARD! OVERALL WEEK 0 CHAMP!
food comm for whole year.
and most importantly
LOADS OF LOVE FROM MY XIAOBAIS! <3
u guys rock my life.


ill miss my main comms
ill miss the year 3s..
ill miss working with the xiaobais,
the fellowship of the food comm, please dont end.

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crazy @

i think hes crazy.
one moment he treats me nice,
and the next he vent his anger on me.

maybe one day ill be crazy too.


best diploma award for AY 0506, LRM & CRM.
but i dont think i deserved it.

hais

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everything seems so grey today. @

i cant find anyone esle to talk to.
looked into my phone, i decided to call oink. but oink was sleeping..
and the others, seems drifted away from me.
where are those that i used to whine to?

what if one day everything stops?
what if?

everything just seems so grey today.
even my friends around me seems so moody. i cant seem to read minds anymore.


maybe it just the stress building up.
schs starting soon. gona be alright..

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food comm. @

the fellowship of the food comm.

(:

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reflects @

Those tears dont seems to stop.

I just felt uselss today.


I dint expect myself to cry for a club like bsc.
like the others, bsc is PART of our life now.
I just felt useless, watching the others main comm doing thier stuff.
and i felt like a freeloader, waiting to be picked up.
and during debrief these emotions build up.


maybe im only good at making milo.
thats all.

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a few more weeks.. @

a few more weeks...

my period of stay in my unions, namely Business Studies Club and Global Connect Club will be over.

What will be left behind?
Memories?


Its been a fruitful year for me.

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a simple S word. @

today i gona talk about the letter S.
which makes up so many words.

Money makes man evil.
Its really true!

I wrote a familar post on my family and today I wana continue it.
My Dad came home today, and just because no one open the door for him.
He threw away the food that he brought for us.
He threw his keys, watch all over the place.
Whats with his attitude?
MUM is not your maid.
At that moment, at more nonsense from you. You gona get it from me.
You said before, nothing is more important than kinship.
But comparing with the past, before we are more well off,
that sentence dosen't seem to mean anything anymore?
What esle you want?
Quarral with me? next mum. who next?

oh forgot in the morning, the whole family went out WITHOUT me.
I dont feel attached in this family anyway?
I think I am a mere accident, thats why Im borned.
Money isnt a form of CARE.

S word. Stupid. Money breeds stupididty.
It made me grew too dependent on everyone esle.
For money seem to be able to buy me most stuff.

I dont wana stay in this family anymore. I dont wana stay in a house which I talk to no one.
Am I a stranger?



I used to love my family.




Nothing is consistent in this world, except change.
and yet sometimes its too consistent till you cant see it.

I jjust want another S word.
Simple.

I want a smiple life.
A life which I can do things I enjoy
a life that have always been pictured in my dream for 19 years.

Simplicity can be the most complex thing in the word.
I have simple thoughts, and yet people view them as complex.
A human mind might be as deep as an ocean, but no one knows whats underneath the ocean.


I feel like Shit now.

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this blood mv @

(:

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sorry. @

im sorry zhuzhu!

i made u woke up early and yet i slept like a pig.
now u are so tired.
and sleeping soundly in ur bed.

IM SORRY. buy u lunch sometime okay?

):

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meihua's birthday. @

went to celeb meihua birthday today.
wonder why so many birthday recently.
just celebrated joyce's on tue.

met up with gab. mh. baoli. mich. and yujia.
but thats not the point.

despite being so busy and not contacting them so much during sch semester.
we still can find topics to talk about
we still can find games to play.
a simple dinner
a simple slack out.

the warmth of friends being around..

OH YA. i gona see my xiao bais tml! BULLY ZHU ZHU. HAHAHA.

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random 3- in - 1 @

if theres someone i really what to mention now.
that would be dar!

though we din meet up alot.
i always felt we have alot of chat about on each time we meet.
and out of nowhere, she would pop out with a sms to brighten your day.

i still remember, there was one particular sms that she wrote:
"dar! i woke up and cry like mad. i had a bad nightmate about you!"
what kind of friends cries when they have nightmare about YOU?
"what nightmare was it about"
"i cant tell u dar! if not it will come true".

and the other day.
"dar!"
"yes?"
"nothing, just thought of you suddenly"

i admited i din reply after a few sms, becoz im busy.
busy with so many things till i missed out the time to catch up with my friends.
normally people just contact me because they have something in their mind, if not they wont even care.


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holidays gona end real soon.
a fruitful holiday i must say.
a holiday that made me close with my classmates.
a holiday which brought up and down to the friendship i had with my girlies.
a holiday that made me grow so much.
and of course a holiday to let me know my xiao bais.

im really looking forward to the new semester.

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BGR. are they really nesscary?
some told me that i dont need anyone by me.
but.
im like anyone esle.

anyone would like someone to love them. to care about them
anyone would like to listen to THAT person voice , the first thing you wake up and the last thing before you sleep.
anyone would like someone to cheer you up.

but looking at it?
i dont think i make the mark.
i FORGET easily.
im really busy till i cant committ myself.
maybe those are excuses.
but the main one is.
I DONT WANA BE HURT AGAIN.
never.

until that someone comes along.'
thou shall never seek for an relationship.

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till the next time i blog.

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down. @

back to this blog again.
recently really very down.
i broke down after the series of events.

sorry xiao bais, if i showed any attitude to you peepz.

life is so grey and dark.
boring i must say.
i hope i die from mentos posioning.

i dun wana think anymore.

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THIS IS A FREAKING LONG POST. @

DISCLAIMER:
THIS WILL BE A FREAKING LONG POST.
COMMENTS ARE SERIOUSLY NOT WELCOMED.

here goes.

somehow or rather, im getting rather unlucky recently.
and it all points to myself.

my v3 got spoiled, the phone that i loved so much even though everyone ask me to change it. and very unwillingly im using my dad's 6680 now. the following, i lost my wallet during SL Camp few days ago. and yesterday after clubbing @ butter factory, i deserved much of the blame becoz i shouldnt have driven to club at the first place. and my without much questioning quarreled with me like ive killed someone.

but i believe everything is chaning. some kind soul brought my wallet back into my mailbox.

in a typical sms to oinkie

me : I FOUND MY WALLET!

oinkie: Walao. E world is fuckin unfair! Cheebye. I lost my bag for 8 months already and nobody friggin returned any shit to me. Dammit

thats the oinkie i loved.

oh ya . i got into a minor accident.
for those who din know what happened.
this is what happened.

i went clubbing @ butterfactory with jac, joyce, ting, elizabeth, shuling and wei xiang. being at a private party, most of them were tp students. we enjoyed ourself, and i drank abit more. im sobber i must say, but i aint willing to take the risk for my newly recieved lisence, so i told ade to drive. at the turn out to the carpark, the secoond left door of my car hit the wall. at that point of time. i knew something bad gona happen.

ade this is not ur fault okay? <3. dont worri about it.

after sending the girls home, i got home, feeling tired. bathed and slept.

which kind of people. burge into ur door, and without asking much, accuses u for drink driving?

i din wanted to tell my dad anything, because the first world he said was, u drink and drive izzit.
for the 18 years of my life, my dad never doubted me anything. not even when i was put behind bars when my friends stole something and i took up the blame.
drink and drive? you think your son isn't sensible?
dad. i din wanted this kind of this to happen. yes i admit it is my fault, but your tone of talking was totally wrong.
i admit i wasnt the best of any child that. i admit im hard to handle.
but im accussed.
never in my life i felt so insulted.

and im not talking much to anyone in my family.
becuz every other person in the family thought that my sis did it, she's angry.
becuz mum tries to cover up for me, and becuz of dad accusing me.
by hook or my crook, i gona get money and repair the damage.

people who owe my money plesae return me!

i shall wait for jiefeng to break camp later in the day, and how much does repairing a broken odysyee door and repainting the door and bumpers cost.
and i shall NOT drive to club again.
that is if i ever have the chance again.

the topic of cars aside.
i really enjoyed company from my friends,
i saw ahboo, cherie and jane with their regular clubber friends at MS after their double O.

i realised how long since i last saw them.
i realised its been nearly a month since i last met up with rachel (not my class rach)
i realised how long since i last say hazel and wendy too.
and i realise there are tons to people i wana meet up with.
and i really can see those who stood my me when i need them.
joyce forbid me to drive, becuz shes afraid i get into trouble.
oinkie provided me with all the answers i needed (u CHEEEBYE. WHEN WE MEETING UP?)
ting was there for me. raine was there too.
and of course my other girlies.

there are loads and loads i wana blog about friendship. after much thought, i decided not to.

the aftermath of SL camp is still crazy.
the food comm is still crazy about 小白(S)
小白! 小白! where are u?! <3
i love those crazy bunch much.

fornow. i just wana get over and done with, with that car and that dad of mine.
please ask me out, i dun wana live in warzone everyday.

<3

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bored. @

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.
Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

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SL CAMP @

finally after weeks of missing.
I AM BACK.

after numerous suppers with joyce, song, ting blah blah blah ( the same old usual people)
and 4 days of camps in sch.
im back to blog.

sl camps great.
different from previous years.
food comm was great.
eat sleep prepare food.
eat sleep prepare food.
oh ya. joyce brought me liang teh during the camp (how nice).
but it was bitter.

lazy to blog.
everytime i wana blog.
i get stuck at this page.

going butterfactory tonite.

OH YA. I LOST MY WALLET. KNN

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