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social sucide. @

i look down that list.
all those names that are close to me.
no longer felt they are.
i wana vent my negative thoughts on someone.
yet no one seems to be there.

i know this blog is read by alot.
both my close friends, as well as hi-bye friends.

i tried approaching dar, but i couldnt place my burden on her smiling face.
dont do anything stupid, she said.
smoke? drink? slice?
i dont do that.

come to think of it. maybe i was a lousy friend.
i cant balance out my time.
i was supposed to have lunch with my ex classmates, but i went to bsc room instead.
i was supposed to go for bbq session, but i chose not to instead.
i was supposed to meet gab chek and maisie. but i chose not to instead.

wadeva my reasons are.
i made promises.
and i made them empty.

i think thats the reason oink dosnt call anymore.
i think thats the reason im drifting from everyone.
ting. raine. oink.
my classmates.
xiaobai.
even my family.

where can i find my comfort in?




family. friends. studies.
everything crashes down on me.

his footsteps