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We enjoy warmth because we have been cold.
We appreciate light because we have been in darkness.
By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.

im sorry my friends. im sorry everyone.

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to twinnie. @


































close your eyes,
let me hold your hands as we walk through this journey together.

im really sorry for what happened last night.
but at least now we understand how each other feels.
i might not be the best boyfriend you will ever get,
but at least my love for you is real.
i ll let you forget your doubts,
so just close your eyes for a lil,
let me lead,
as we step onto this long journey.

my silly dodo,
theres not turning back once we stepped onto this journey.
will you be willing to walk with me?

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thanks dewgong @

i was feeling rather down, thus went to read blogs.
and i realised how loved i am.

heres something from dewgong's blog:
if god is to give mi another chance between friendship or relationship, wad should i choose? i treasure him alot... i tink it would be friendship... i wanna be with him forever... stayin by his side... protecting him secretly and loving him with all i have...what's true love? how long can a true love lasts? isn't tt saddening to noe e truth, e fact, e reality...mi n junquan can only be friends and we two noe tt... y is tt so? we really do treasure each other... another reason y we didn work out is tt we noe each other too well le ba... surprisingly we didn work out too... ha! once my ice cream man, foreva my ice cream man...my promises to ice cream man:1st- be there for him alwaes2nd- be his 1st passenger3rd- shout "im a turn off" durin sl camp4th- i wont show anyone, includin my gfs darlin , e letapromises are promises... not meant to be broken

thank you my friends, for seeing my life through.
thank you yiting and raine for being there when i need you.
thank you oinkie for talking to me.
thank you dar for listening
thank you dewgong, promises are never meant to be broken.
thank you sox, for growing up with me.
thank you gab and gang, for those advices.
thank you my tp mates, for lending me your ears.


and sorry,for giving myself away.

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faith @

ive seen too many broken relationships.
and experienced one 3 years ago.

many due to mismatch of characters
others due to not understanding each other.
unwilling to compromise, unwilling to give up.

i admit, i am very much afriad.
and very much lucky.
kaiqi, this very special girl in my life.
she will always be. ever since it started.

we've not known each other for long, but we felt we've know for years.
each time we have mis-understanding or conflicts, we will talk it out.
and we always ended up giving into each other.
and finding out how much more we loved each other.

i dont know how more must i express myself to her.
even words cant put down how i feel.

2 more months and ill be leaving for hongkong,
leaving my lil silly dodo behind.
3 months isnt a long time, neither its a short time.
i told her how i felt,
but whenever im with her, i dont feel that way.

i may send letters,
i may send emails.
i may send presents,
but will i be able to send my love?
and will you be able to feel it?

my love.
2 more months more
some part of me tells, me not to go,
maybe our relationship isnt that concrete yet.
yet some part of me tells me to.
for our love will be able to overcome distance and time.

its really hard.
espically for me when im alone.
all the negative thoughts will flow.
i have complete confidence and faith in our love.
but i am never complacent.
i guess i really dont want you to leave me nor i wana let go.

if you really have to.
put yourself before me.
like ive always told you to.

if you think someone's better than me, go
if you think you will be happier with that someone, go.
for all i want is just you to be happy.
just tell me "i dont love you anymore and i want to give up "
"i love you, i dont want to give up"
and
if that someone isnt what you think,
if that you feel you are not how happy you tot.
i will still love you. always behind you.
but i wont be together with you.

after i return, will we drift apart?
or will we ended up knowing how deep we have fallen?
maybe like what you said, you may just feel the same when cindy left.
but somehow i dont feel that way.
i dont know, only time will tell.

this might just be a random post,
or will be an important one.
hopefully one day,
when this post is being read.
our heart still beats together as one.

i stopped loving myself ever since the day i started loving you.
i dont mind falling, i dont mind getting hurt.
what matters the most to me, is you.

be true to yourself, and lead a happy life.

thanks for making me believe.
thanks for coming into my life.
thanks for letting me love you.
and thanks for bringing me back to life.
my twinnie. my silly dodo. my love. my girl. my girlfriend. my princess.
my everything.

Khoo Kai Qi.
I Love You.

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relationships @

dont ever ask about my relationship.
there are times i just wish it to be quiet.

i stopped loving myself.

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@

I bruise you
You bruise me
We both bruise so easily
Too easily
To let it show

I love you
And that's all I know

Though my plans keep falling through
All my plans
they depend on you
Depend on you
To help them grow

I love you
And that's all I know

When the singers gone
Let the song go on
It's a fine line between
The darkness and the dawn
They saying the darkest night
There's a lot beyond

And the ending always comes at last
Endings always come too fast
They come too fast
And they past us slow

I love you
And that's all
It's really all I know
It's all I know

- twinnie

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to her @

do what it you feel its right.
do what you feel it makes you happy.

its your life, not mine.












you dont hurt me lidat and look for me later.
thanks to those who are concern.
im okay.

its not only about me.
it takes two hands to clap.

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hais @

i got into another car accident again.
dont worry, im fine, just some scolding, a ban from driving, and a hole in my pocket.

just careless before i turn, and i caught a proton's butt.

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love. @















ive got nothing to say,
ive got nothing to hide,
for my love for you,
is shining so bright.

i love khoo kai qi.

ears to listen, shoulders to lend
and a hug that will bring every troubleaway.
im by you, always by you.
even if you pushed me aside,
i know there are times you need to be alone.
i know your heart is crying out loud,
for i can feel from that hug.

let me carry your sorrows,
let me carry your burdens.
for whatever i did,
was from a true pure heart.

the sky is dark,
the cloud covers the moon,
and the stars went away with the silence.
and suddenly i cant feel
cant feel, cant understand.
tell me.
those words of silence, those words of gold.
and let me bring back that smile in you again.

my silly dodo, tell me what happen, or how you felt.
after you have sorted everything out.

ill hold every promises i made to you.
khoo kai qi, i love you.

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i hate it @

dont ask me to do work when you dont trust it.

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guranteeeeeD :) @

! kaiqi ;reality time check. says:
u wan me to blog
! kaiqi ;reality time check. says:
u wan me to write testi
! kaiqi ;reality time check. says:
wad else u wan me to do aR?!
junquan says:
i want u to
junquan says:
LOVE ME!


that u dun have to ask me to..
its warranted. =)

- twinnie

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Do I need to say more?

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close. @

i guess im leaving my blog to rot.

so much things to say.
yet i cant find the words to.

too many people know about my blog.

and for that, ill leaving it to rot.

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me. @

the sea. the waves. the breeze. the moon. the stars.

sometimes i need to be alone.
or am i really alone?

i guess im just thinking too much.

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welcome to my life. @

welcome to my life

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I wonder where you are
I wonder what your thinking about tonight
I wonder
Maybe your alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder
I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you
Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my life's a mess
Cause i'm
Cos I couldn't love you any less

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

Too soon
It's not right
It's not fair
It's in you baby cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious to soon
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

are we too serious too soon?

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tell me why @

tell me why i spend hours with her.
instead of doing my work and sleeping?

and tell me why am i so easily affected?

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(: @

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

- i cant explain it.



someone gona blush blush blush.

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to twinnieS. @

why is it SOMEeverytime she makes my day,
but ill be the one destroying hers? -NOT

i think i feel how she feels now.
and shes got everyNO right to be angry.

imagine you spent your savingsMONEY
buying something for someone special.
you are excited to see that someone's reaction.
and yearning to see him
because you haven been seeing him for agesA DAY.
but yet that special someone cant turn up.
reason, sleepSICK.

whats wrong with me?
i keep sleeping.
24hours a day, 18 hours are on sleep.
even when im awake, ill stone.

to my twinnie.
sorry for disappointing you.
sorry for angering you.
sorry for being such a lousy person.
sorry for everything.



and.. twinnie says:

i am NOT disappointed
i am NOT angry
u are NOT a lousy person
thr's NOThing to be sorry about.

its OK twinnie =)

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twinnie says :"DAY!" @

so tell me..
how's ur DAY?

:)

- twinnie

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