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woke up every morning
its a pain and bliss to wake up everyday, without you by my side.
and goes to bed thinking of you again.

everyone thinks im okay, im alright.
i am alright. im terms of living on.
perharps not everybody get to feel the level of helpless-ness i felt.

seeing the one losing everything.
just to wait for me to be back.
hurts more than everything else.

i said i would stay.
and never leave.
will be back for her.
and i want to.
i want to.
i really want to.
ill give anything just to be back in her arms again

im not a selfish creature and never be one.
i said i will leave ( though i never wanted to )
so that i wont stand in the way.
i love you more than anything else..

to lose yourself.
to completely fall in love.
that i experienced before.

painful?
blissful?


i love you kaiqi.
nothing matters more than you happiness.
nothing.
nothing at all.

his footsteps